,who

i can't understand why you just walked in like that,
but i love it,
i sure do,

,cake

to fall completely and still be fine,
to fail completely and still be ok,
to fall completely and still be alive,
to loose it all and still love life,

,home

,become

to make a living,
to make a living,
to make a living,
to make me leave this,

,before

all this time,
that you spent before,
made it all so sure,
made it all so sure,
i don't know how to find this,
i really don't,

,yes

this is it,

,on

i want to know what it is,
i want to know why it is,
i want to know who it is,
but most of all,
i want to know why you don't,

,white light

this is so nice,
this is so nice,
this feeling is so nice,

,one more time

i don't know if i wanna do it again,

,here

when we come to this it's time to stop,
it's time to rewind a bit,
look at it again,
and move on,
this will never end,
so when we come to this it's time to stop,

,it would be

it would be nice,
it really would,
if you just could look me in the eyes,
if you just could close your eyes,
if you just could,
if you just would,
but i guess you never will,

,forget

i'm so bad at letting go,
i'm really bad at it,
i hate to see you moving on,
i hate to see you smile on,
i hate that i can't make you smile anymore,
i hate that,
i hate that,

,and it's back again

when i thought that i was here,
and i really did,
i did,
then i saw you all,
and you all act,
you do,
then i feel like letting you all go,
letting you all go,
and just leave you all,

,found

and i've been looking for you,
all over,
all over,
all over,
all over,
when i tell you the truth i feel like home,
so i guees i found you,

,then this

today was grey,
and i slept a lot,
dreaming,
i don't like to dream,
maybe that's why i never remember them,
i love to live in real time,
in real time,

,didn't end

i just wanted to make this less ending,
so i just wanted to post this,
and the big black hole is a part of it all,
it is,
and it's nothing you can do about it,
it's up to me to change it,
and right now i really don't mind it,
i really don't,

,some people

some do magic,
and some do harm,
and i found magic,
i really did,
and now i wanna be alone,
alone with you,
alone,
with you,

,you are

i slept with a smile on my lips,
i woke up and i felt that this was new,
i felt that this is the way,
the way it should be,
you are beautiful,
you are fucking beautiful,

,off

it's hard to be alone and run from the truth,
i feel fucking lonely,
and all i do is searching for space,
a space to be alone in,
,
you will leave me in the end,
you don't have to tell me,

,rmbr

i got an unexpected phone call from new york city today,
it brought back memories,
both good and bad,
and sometimes it's hard to forget,
sometimes it's hard to forgive,
but most of the time,
it's hard to forget,
it's hard to forget,
and it's hard to remember what you were suppose to forget,

,last night

pictures from my summerhouse,
it's nice spending time with yourself sometimes,
this was a nice time,
and i think i know why now,
but i don't know how,

,wait for me

,mistake

,shot in the back of the head

,that thing

i would send you in a package if i could,
and i would send you far away,
so that i could have a reason to go after you,
so that i could have a reason to save you,

,end in the beginning

by knowing this about you,
doesn't mean i know you,
by saying this to you,
does it mean that i want to know you,
but if you keep letting me be outside,
letting me stand here,
right here,
it's fucking cold,
i tell you,
but by letting me stand here,
i'll never reach you,

,machine

if you bring it to the edge,
if you push it just a little bit further,
maybe even tries to pretend it,
i may believe that you're empty and nothing to care about,
but if you just let me talk to you,
i might love you,

,surrendercity

,again

went to my favorite city again,
it's great,
it really is,
if my life screws up,
i want it to screw up there,
and what if,
what if,
the words keep in touch,
really could involve touching,

,lucky i got you

,soon i'll be

and if that mocking bird don't sing,
and that ring don't shine,
i'ma break that birdies neck,
i'll go back to the jeweler,
who sold it to ya,
and make him eat every karat,
don't fuck with dat,

,19

i wish my name were Peter Pan,

,magic

when i first saw you,
i knew that you had,
a flame in your heart,
and i'll do anything to keep it burning,

upyt,

it's been i while,
time just goes by,
it wouldn't surprise me if i founded a package of butter in my bag that i bought two weeks ago,
one week left of school and i don't know what to do afterwards,
tonight i will sit down with my calendar and plan the summer,
vienna, lisbon, denmark...
i hope i can make it all,

,tired

i've been playing around with the titles on the posts for a while,
but i'm bored of it now,
haha,
you can see the result to the right,
gosh i'm bored,
well,
a "poem" in swedish for linnea because she commented,
which almost no one do,

en av de jobbigaste sakerna att känna är förvirring.
ett stadie där man inte vet vad man ska ta sig till.
oftast skapar det frustration.
en frustration som man inte kan påverka.
det är skönt när man slipper förvirringen.
när man av någon anledning har klart för sig om hur man vill ha det.
det har man oftast aldrig.
men den här gången har jag det.
så jag säger det ärligt.
det finns ingen anledning att skapa förvirring.

,maybe

i was sick and tired of everything,
when you called me last night from,
tokyo?

,if

when we reach death,
we'll all be at the same level,

,that was the

that was the last chance this city got,
it doesn't bring what i want,
they can't even dance in tempo to the fucking bad music,
and in the end,
they all find each other for the night,
i'm not doing this here,
i'm not doing it,

,beginning

i love you,
always forever,
near and far,
closer together,
everywhere,
i will be with you,
everyday,
i will devour you,
i love you,
always forever,
near and far,
closer together,
everywhere,
i will be with you,
everyday,
i will devour you,

what if life could be explained in a song,
what if a song could creat a life,
i won't play by the rules anymore,
i can't do this anymore,
i will tell you the truth from now,

,i guess you

if this is what i have to go through every time i will hate this city,
but i hope we all will learn by this,
i really do,
i really do need a hug today,
just a simple hug,
i'm in this simple mood,
i like it simple,
i don't need much,
but i need you guys,
i wish i could pay back all you gave and give me,
but i can't,
i don't know how to pay this back,
i really don't know how to pay you back,

,wanted me to

i slept to little and i have to get going,
today i'll wake up in another city,
i need to take some time away from this,
it's too much right now,
too much of the good,

,so

after a walk home in the middle of the night i realized,
i don't really need anybody,
the silence,
the empty streets,
the slow morning light,
and the sound of my shoes along the ground,
that was all i needed tonight,
so the eyes,
the lies,
all the lies in my head,
are for nothing,
i don't mind you being kind,
but i don’t need your kindness when i know it’s not lasting,

,now i

adopted and with a updated chat on facebook,
i think i now how to live my life again,
and you're included,
you really are,

,i feel

i found myself a new home,
it's too big and has no windows,
but i love it anyway,
does anybody want to sit by my fireplace?

,a little bit

the confusing part isn't that you don't remember me,
the confusing part isn't that you don't want me,
the confusing part isn't that you don't like me,
the confusing part is that i don't know anything right know,

,sometimes

it's hard to look straight when all my friends don't,
but i will try,
i have to make it,
i just have to,

,i mean

i turned on the light and found myself in a position i had never been in before,
so i kept it on and now i only move in this strange way and i don't think i ever will turn it off,

,it's hard

i would love to live like you,
for a while,
but i don't know,
i love you,

,it's like

the best thing with this sweatshirt is that it's real,
it's a friends friend who won,
the worst thing with this sweatshirt is that i'll have to return it soon,
i love to borrow clothes,
haha,

,is this

is this what we aim for then i know,
is this the point i've reached,
will this go on until you say i do,
will this go on until i'll stop hope for you,

,ok

my friend rúben insisted me to write my posts in english,
because i believe that all of my swedish friends understands english,
and because i don't believe that you're more then five people reading this,
it's going to be in english,
i want to end this post by saying that rasmus ölme is lovely,
and to congratulate my dear friend henrik,

,insikt för i helvete

litet skämt att jag typ glider in till den här pretentiösa stilen i alla fall när jag blir lite nere,
nu är det slut på det,
ska kanske flytta ned och leva som musa för rúben,
jag vill,
jag vill,
jag vill,
jag har inga pengar och inte han heller,
det kommer inte ske,
någon som vill betala min resa till lissabon?

,blank

ännu en förlust,
fortfarande tomhänt och funderar på vad som krävs,

,i know everything about you

kulturfylld helg,
svensk kultur är inte så tråkig som man tror ibland,
heja fenomenal finkultur,
heja vintageaffären rost på hornsgatan 112,
heja fräscha danskompanier,
heja black market på st eriksplan,
heja spontana livet!!

,feed me to the fishes

jag låter min blyghet ta över mig själv,
det är omöjligt att förneka den uppenbara närvaron,
och nästintill sårbart att se hur jag tror att det går,
jag leder mig själv in i ett ensamt slut,
snart ska jag våga säga vad jag känner,
det ni gör är underbart,
fortsätt,

,from today

solen lyser och alla är sjukt glada,
kom igen!!!!

,i fell in love with this city

,it's ok

tänk om jag aldrig igen kommer känna det som man förväntas känna.
jag måste sluta leta.

,this little thing of mine

i'm gonna let it shine.
boys noize var underbart.
alex var underbar.
roligt!!!!!!

,hills

ibland är det så extremt tröttsamt när man försöker bygga upp en underton eller en dold mening i texter.
saker och ting kan vara konkreta och simpla också.
som att det är jobbigt när det är lite för varmt så att man måste ha persiennerna nere hela soliga dagarna.
det är tråkigt.
men det är jättefint och skönt att solen är här.

,JKYLFDNGREKASOEF

solen visar allt ifrån en lite bättre sida.
jag är alldeles för feg och får faktiskt skylla mig själv.
hoppas jag kommer iväg härifrån snart.

,jerk

gisèle vienne, i love you.

,he would not go to Italy

ibland känns saker och ting väldigt bra.
det blir som om att man hamnar i ett mellanting med allt annat.
man fastnar för stunden och tänker bara på att leva i nuet.
det är lite av vad jag tänker försöka göra ett tag nu.
det betyder ju inte att jag inte tycker om det som jag inte gör nu.
men man mår mycket bättre om man gör de saker man måste och de man känner för.
ibland går det inte, men när det går, så ska man nog försöka göra det.
det regnade lite idag också.
antingen regnar det mycket eller inte alls,
tack.

,facts to face

det spelar ingen roll hur länge sen jag höll om dig.
det spelar ingen roll att vi inte kommer ses på jättelång tid.
det spelar ingen roll hur ofta jag tänker på dig.

,truth

jag hoppas ibland på att min blogg skulle se ut såhär,
lite fin,
lite pretentiös,
med fina dikter och lite fina bilder,
men jag skriver varken fina dikter eller skapar söta citat,
jag fotar inte heller särskilt bra,
men ändå har jag skapat den här bloggen,
lite för att påminna mig själv vad jag gör om dagarna när mitt minne sviker mig,
lite för att jag tycker om att skriva ibland,
för att det finns en del saker att nämna,
lite för att jag tycker det kan vara ett bra sätt att uttrycka sig själv på.
visst kommer det dyka upp bilder som jag kanske tycker är fina eller som jag vill visa upp,
och en del korta texter som jag kanske fastnat för eller tänkt på väldigt länge,
men helst utan någon press,
för jag är inte särskilt bra på något av det,
jag kan lite andra saker,
och är bra på annat,
men jag hoppas att någonting intressant ska finnas här också,
tiden får visa,
så,

,to be or not to be

,dreams

"jag trodde inte att livet fanns innan jag mötte dig"
"det tror jag inte på"
"vad tror du på?"
"att kärlek tar slut"
"tar vi slut?"
"ja, någon gång."

,best damn friend

,all alright

,a new start

with nothing to prove,
nothing to say,
just a piece of me,
i will forget anyway,